I think it's safe to say I'm having a bit of post-injury depression which the doctor did say could happen. (I laughed when he said that...I guess the joke is actually on me.) It's no secret that if I could get a do-over for the past 3 months, I would take it in half a heartbeat. I haven't liked myself much (and from what I've heard, seen and felt, a lot of people feel the same way...not a guilt trip people. Just stating facts.)
Luckily, I have a new job I am throwing myself into and it forces me to put on a happy face. For the minutes I actually do have to think, I try to remind myself of the words below. I hope these will help ya'll on your bad days too...and I apologize if these are repeats. :o)
**Just so you get it...I guess I should tell ya'll that this time of year is always a bit hard for me. Every guy I have fallen in love with the past 5 years has always fallen in love with someone else and for whatever reason, I'm just painfully aware of it lately.
I'm the female version of Good Luck Chuck and I don't mean that to be funny.
I fall and I get hurt. Every. Single. Time. (If we're being specific, it's been about 5 times since 2007. I'm very much inclined to think something is wrong with me.) I've met families, bonded with sisters, been asked to spend holidays with them and after all that, someone cuter, quirkier and probably shorter has introduced herself. I'm thrilled that I'm so replaceable. While I realize that finding love seems as easy as counting 1,2,3; please do me a favor and hug your loved spouse a bit harder tonight. Life is not easy for us single girls out here. Especially me.
I know I said this will be a "single girl" blog but please forgive me for changing direction. I have no idea where I'm going but I hope you'll stay with me on the journey. If not, thank you for staying with me this far! Xoxo
Should I start sending you daily bible verses?? I will, you know, if it helps.
ReplyDeleteHang in there; I know this time of year is especially hard; I know it isn't the same but you have us! (and Toby- oh wait, I have Toby! but he is ignoring me and I know he likes you best!)
HAHAHAHA... Im not laughing because its funny but because i know EXACTLY how you feel! Just ask me about guys and the holidays! Last year at Christmas I cried I was so sad! Thankfully I held it in until I got in the car, new years was even worse... I made a vow that I was going to focus more on enjoying the journey and not always wanting more. TRUST me I have been burned! This year has been full of a million ups and downs... I know its soooooo cliche but I met the guy I am with now when I was least expecting to meet someone! You are beautiful, like really beautiful... you're not single by choice because I guarantee you could have settled along the way... hang in there and hold out for someone who deserves you!
ReplyDeleteMy favorite is: "Everything falls apart so that it can fall together."
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